Oh my goodness, It has been one of those weeks....
1. We get invited to a party that I was less than thrilled about going to because it was with a bunch of people that just seem to make me feel very inadequate. I know that it is my issue and that it has nothing to really do with them. They are nice people. Just a group that you feel always does things better than you. I get ready for the party and we venture off. I am breastfeeding and have never to that day leaked. Oh yes, it happened at the party. How many people noticed before I did? I was very embarrassed and wanted to crawl under a rock. Thankfully I was wearing a scarf so after stuffing a little toilet paper in my bra(it's all I could find) and rearranging my scarf I was back at the party. After getting back home I go to get ready for bed only to realize that I had my sweater on backwards the whole time. Of all days for that to happen. I must have looked like the biggest idiot.
2. I volunteered to make almond bark pretzels for my Mother-In-Law to give away at a party here in town. I am tired of making pretzels because they are my go to party snack for Christmas time and have already made a ton of them. I was very tired the other night as I was preparing them and went to put them in the refrigerator to set up and dropped them all over the bottom of the refrigerator. As soon as the almond bark hits the shelf it sets up. I tried to clean it up as quickly as I could but it wasn't soon enough. I wanted to cry. I still have almond bark stuck to my crisping drawers. GRRR!
3. I have my post-pardum check at the doctors office yesterday. My doctor is never quick getting into the room once you are taken back so I didn't figure I needed to hurry. They tell me to take my pants off and get on the table with the little paper cover they give you. I take my pants off and am removing my underwear when the doctor walks in. All I could do was yell "WOOOOH". He says "Oh I'm sorry" and walks back out. I shouldn't be embarrassed but it is something about the security of the little paper blanket makes you feel better. After getting a second to get ready he comes back again. I am red in the face and again looking for the rock to crawl under but he handled it real well. I know that it wasn't like he hadn't seen it all before after having delivered all of my babies but something about standing pantsless in front of another guy that is just a little awkward.
Hopefully all of my most embarrassing moments of the week can lighten up your holiday season.
I realized as I was looking through pictures that we only had 1 family picture that included Nicola. She is leaving on January 4th so I thought it was time to get that done. After taking several pictures I decided that maybe the good old funny face pose would work best for our family because Tate was crying, Zach kept posing anyway, the sun was in our eyes, and it just wasn't going well.
We will miss Nicola. Especially the girls because they have grown so close over the last year. Hopefully one of these days we will be able to take a trip to Australia to visit her.
I do love this little man but the 4am wake up call is getting a bit old. It would be one thing if he would eat and go back to sleep but he always decides that it is play time. Why can't play time be at 4pm? It is super sweet to watch him checking things out. Knowing that he is experiencing things for the first time in his life. I thank God that I get to watch him learn and grow. Those things keep me sane. This time is so precious but, oh my, this mama is tired.
It is beginning to look like Christmas at our house and I must admit that it isn't because of me. I usually love it but am being kind of a scrooge this year probably has more to do with a little post-partum depression and lack of money than anything else. Good thing I have Brandon. My husband has always loved Christmas and the feeling that comes along with the holiday. He dragged everything down out of storage and decorated the outside of the house while I put up the tree. I wouldn't even have the tree up if he hadn't got me motivated.
Even Zach has been excited for Christmas and he made Tate his name out of Lego's to give him as a gift. Zach was disappointed with me last night because I couldn't find any tape to wrap it. He really can't wait for Tate to be able to play with him. It is cute how much he loves him.
Let's hope that soon a little of Brandon's Christmas spirit will rub off on me and the celebration can begin. Even though he keeps reminding me that "Christmas is coming whether I want it to or not so you better just embrace it".
“Remember you are only playing for an audience of one.” She was telling me I only have to please my Heavenly Father and not people. I must follow the leadership of Christ in my life at all cost. We absolutely cannot be followers of any one other that Jesus..........................
From Girlfriends in God Daily Devotional